christmas is right around the corner...

So I don't have a lot of money this year for xmas gifts, but looking is still fun! I found some cute gift ideas:::

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Aren't these ear buds so adorable


This would be PERFECT for the kids room - Ice cream cone lamp $$48 though :/










I love this vest. Reminds me of Rachel Zoe














This owl necklace watch is to die for. I know LOTS of girls out there that would kill for this




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Yesterday I died my hair myself - burgundy. I thought I would for sure mess up and it would come out looking leopard style - missed patches everywhere. BUT I am quite proud of myself. I did pretty good!

HAPPY (POST) THANKSGIVING TO EVERYONE. This year has been a HUGE year for me (which I will reflect on for my new years entry) Yesterday wasn't what I had expected. I woke up with a MASSIVE MASSIVE migraine. Which led to me throwing up half the day. I barely finished making the food somehow with little strength I had. I don't know what happened or why I was that sick. Jesse made the turkey everything else I made ie: apple pie stuffing (Jesse helped with that as well) mashed potatoes sweet potatoes corn green beans rolls etcetc. Later that night around 6 o clock or so I started to feel better. Ralph and Rosely came over with some wine and OJ (mimosas!!) and some fancy glasses (which we ended up not drinking) and jello shots. We drank some grape bombers (grape vodka with redbull) I needed a "get me out of this bad mood/bad feeling" drink! So they spent the night and the next morning Jesse and I left to get some lunch and see a movie at Chandler Fashion Square. I had completely forgotten that it was BLACK FRIDAY (dundundun) and there was NO where to park! LITERALLY. So we left and went to AZ mills instead. Got a shirt for $2.50 and another for $10.00 (ended up not seeing a movie)





In other news, my uncle passed away November 24th (may you rest in peace uncle John Juraska) Thank you ALL for your condolences that means the world to me that you care that you would grieve with me and my family. So thank you. I know that my cousins must be going through a VERY rough time right now. I cant even imagine what it will be like when I lose one of my parents. Which brings me to what I am thankful for:::

-I am thankful for coming to know God this year. For being saved.
-I am thankful for Jesse and I having a great relationship (because this year started out rocky for us)
-I am thankful for friends who are there, who care and who make me smile :)
-I am thankful for family that love me. For family that accept me (because lord knows I have become a black sheep this year. Drifted away. People have drifted) And I am thankful that my dad and I are speaking again, and so far, we have a good relationship
-And most of all, I am thankful for having a roof over my head, clean sheets, and food on my plate. Thank you GOD for all of these things.

Here's a picture of out thanksgiving dinner (more not pictured: cranberry sauce apple pie cookies ice cream)

words.

They never really get it, until they GET IT. They will make fun of you all they want. All that they can. And they WILL look down upon you for how you choose to live. How you choose not to live. And everything WILL be torn down. The walls. The ceilings. The doors. The panels. THE FRIENDSHIPS. THE FAMILY. But, you have to keep living this life. Keep pushing and moving and running. And eventually, it will all come into place. And land right where it is supposed to land.

H&M

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Finally took a trip to H&M with Jesse to look around - and it was NOT what I remember - price wise. The clothes aren't cheap. I found one shirt (which I love and bought) pictured above - for only twelve bucks - a steal! I am surprised I even found a shirt that cheap. I found a few other shirts for like twenty bucks I guess that is not too bad either. The jeans there were pretty amazing and I will definately be back for more when I have $$. The place was a complete mad house. Packed to the brim with fancy rich people (location being scottsdale should have been a dead giveaway). One lady I passed would not stop bragging to her friend about her trip to Paris and her splurge at H&M when she went there. K WE GET IT - you have money! Had to walk away at that point. The ENTIRE top floor was designated to childrens clothes - no offense but that was a bad idea in my opinion. H&M isn't a department store/big enough to designate an entire top floor to children. Overall the store was okay and when I get some more money saved up I will most likely go back and shop some more.

Tonight was quite productive - went to frys before the sale ended and finally got my turkey - PHEW! 10 pounds (smallest I could find eeeek pretty big!) for only four dollars and some change. How awesome is that! The smaller turkeys which were a different brand were more expensive so I figured might as well buy a big turkey. This is the first year I am making Thanksgiving dinner all by myself and I am getting really nervous. (dont know why it's just Jesse and I) Also made some sugar cookies tonight but did not make those from scratch I am all baked out. I am ready for a nice glass of wine now. Too bad there isn't any in the house. Tomorrow: Dinner with cindy :)




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The sunset tonight looked pretty amazing. I finally decided to look outside around 6 o clock and noticed how dark it was. I had to snap a picture. I have been a hermit all day. Lounging around in the house: watching t.v. playing Sims (current obsession) and farting around on the computer. OH and eating everything in sight. I Cannot believe how the day was wasted! Really not looking forward to work tomorrow - hoping next week is better than this one.

I am REALLY looking forward to the holiday season this year. I am anxious! I think mostly because Jesse and I have a bigger place to enjoy it in ie: fireplace - spacious -roasting marshmallows inside while drinking some white Russians (Saturday's drink of choice) I am in the baking mood as well! Thursday night I made Swedish pancakes (home made mind you from scratch - flour sugar oil and all!) which turned out AMAZING. Also made a cheese cake later that night. I have been "collecting" food the last couple of weeks to make for Thanksgiving dinner this year. Opted for staying home with the boyfriend this year instead to avoid drama at the grandma's house. It's for the best that I stay away, even though my disappearance will stir up some rumors I'm sure! Just thinking about Thanksgiving dinner is making me hungry! Anyone who wants to come over is welcome. It will just be me and Jesse.



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Ended the evening with a cold cup of Egg Nogg.


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I love this quote

At first I wanted to write our story in order to be free of it. But the memories wouldn't come back for that. Then I realized our story was slipping away from me and I wanted to recapture it by writing, but that didn't coax up the memories either. For the last few years I've left our story alone. I've made peace with it. And it came back, detail by detail and in such a fully rounded fashion, with its own direction and its own sense of completion, that it no longer makes me sad. What a sad story, I thought for so long. Not that I now think it was happy. But I think it is true, and thus the question of whether it is sad or happy has no meaning whatever.

-Bernhard Schlink (tr. Carol Brown Janeway), The Reader

First thing's first. This is my new blog, for now. I like to hop from site to site. I guess I can never really decide or stick with one thing. Livejournal was the only consistent thing. And I will probably still update their as well as here. I have a few goals in mind that I would like to share.
For one, I want to start writing a book.
I would also like to go back to college. I am 24 years (well in a month) old and I feel like , "Man, I am incredibly old. What will I feel like at 30??" Dear God lets change the subject. ;)
Another goal of mine is to write a piece on my journey to finding God. And my journey in that I have lost a lot of people in the process. Those people might say "We didn't lose you/You didn't lose us BECAUSE you found god. It was because of this...(insert reason here) Regardless, the devil or maybe even perhaps god, drew those people away from me. For one, my parents. For two, my best friend also known as my brother. (which I will get into later - long story - broken record at this point)
This journal I would like to use as my writings blog. Or anything that interests me. Feel free to check livejournal for more personal updates.
SO here it is ladies and gents. Check frequently for updates. Enjoy :)